1 Don't worry too much about the change in plans for the party. Kids are far more resilient than we give them credit for and Bear will bounce back from these little bumps in the road way easier. However, that being said, I think it bears reflection that the reality seems to be that you got more done, were more energized, more efficient, more directed, dare I say even happier when you were busier? You seem like you've been lost for months, adrift, unhappy and confused. It seems from the snippets of posts that CD and Bear sense it and the whole family's mood seems tentative. I tried to share an inkling of concern that perhaps the SAHM world wasn't the panacea you were painting it to be (having been on both sides of it in my own life). Now that you've been out of the job for a few months, perhaps you might consider some opportunities that lie between the Type-A work world you left and the vacuum you live in now. The financial pressure can't be good for CD and the tension about it can't be good for either of you. Bear will be in school all day - you don't need to be in an empty house all day alone (at least to my way of thinking). I would wish for you some middle-ground arrangement wherein you could be home FOR Bear, but working to contribute and ease the monetary tension during school hours. I think when you find the balance, your house will be neater, you will feel better, b'day party invites will go out on time, etc etc. It's an old cliche that if you want something done, give it to a busy person, but in your case it seems to be true. Worth thinking about. Sorry for the long post and I certainly don't mean to lecture. I just have come to care about you from afar after reading your blog for all this time and wanted to add some encouragement from my vantage point.

2 aww crap. Sorry hon. Don't worry, it will work out one way or another.

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